Change aint change until you change...

[readers beware] This is clearly a blog about the New Year and Resolutions of such, yes; we are all aware that we can dictate our prosperous planning and/or changing of life on any day of the year but, who wants to do that? New Years is very much significant to most and it is just more fun that way. [ho have a seat!] As much as I would love to speak for everyone else, [I don't, really] personal endeavors are most concerning.

2009 has been a year like no other in my lifetime. I have been poor [no not the joking, laughing I'm poor; but EBT card poor! lol] moved off campus, homeless of sorts, lost my passion and a plethora of inspiration, found it again, lonely, friendless and so forth. Nevertheless, I am grateful for every event that has taken place ushering me one step closer into a place of living in my fullest potential and taking me to the next course in my life. That being said, these are the five thing that I will endure and accomplish with the duration of 2010, believe it or not.

1. Move to NYC. [we're pretty close to crossing this one off the list, t-16 days.]

2. Learn to speak spanish fluently. [not just catch phrases like, (wendy voice) "how u doin?"]

3. GYM/YOGA [ I do well with regiments and deadlines; physical health is important people! skinny does not always = healthy]

4. Gabe. [those who know me know that I dream of a yorkie named Gabe! lol]

5. Read at least 12 books. [I am indeed an avid reader, but for whatever the reason haven't read many books in 2009, I dedicate myself to at least 1 a month.]

well, there you have it. My list, My goals, My aspirations for 2010. [I sincerely pray you find your own and live up to them.]

"No matter what age group or demographic you’re in, 2010 is now and you are its generation."

Wishing you LOVE, PROSPERITY, HOPE, HUMILITY, HAPPINESS, SELF-REVELATION and so much more for 2010,

P E A C E .

To Whom it May Concern:

your eyes are enlightening; your smile unequivocal.

your beauty is spontaneous;your eyes life shattering.

your elegance is a beam of sunlight, i can barely stand your glow;

your embrace is a fairytale enchanted; a story that never ends.

your temperament is a batch of accoutrements finely tuned to balance my own;

your soul is a star in the sky, the brightest, in fact; that gives me warmth to supersede great expectations and reach my dreams.

you are a magical being, and I delight in the fact that you allow me to peruse your shadow...

P E A C E .

In the face of the unexpected, you never know what gonna happen tomorrow; but, I want to live...

I loathe the fact that it always takes me so long to post a new blog. I don't know why that is; especially because I’m constantly reading and/or researching something, but, better late than never I suppose. I guess the most prevalent thing [in my life anyway] to talk about is my move to New York City, [concrete jungle where dreams are made of] Well, I am indeed making that leap of faith and moving to New York with no job, no place to live, and hardly any money. to be honest, I don't want to talk about this, maybe because I have spoken to so many people about it and answered [re answered] the same questions, but I am not going to engage any further; [unless questions are asked]

moving on...

okay, [I cant think of anything else, so] back to square one.

I am moving due to a series of unfortunate [fortunate] events that have naturally taken place in my life; honestly, at this point they are neither here nor their. FACT: I told myself in 2005 when I graduated high school that I would move to NYC and immediately dive into an acting career. [I did not] FACT: I told myself the whole year that I took off that I would go to AMDA or another performing arts school in New York and begin my acting career. [Again, it did not happen] On the contrary, I went to Norfolk State University [Behold the green and gold!] FACT: [is this getting old yet or is it just me?] My duration at NSU I told myself that I would never graduate college, [those were never my intentions] and that it was just a spot filler until I would be able to jump start my career.. trueish?!?

The point I am trying to make is that I wholeheartedly believe that God [life to others] has put me in a place or space where I am currently able to manifest the destiny that I have proclaimed for myself. I have spoke life into the aforementioned words and many others. I started telling people that I was famous in middle school. I have never doubted myself or my abilities and have always spoken a prosperous future no matter the endeavor. That being said I don't dwell in the mishap or “unfortunate” event that lead me to this place; I bask in the opportunity to live a dream; a life for that matter with no fear, regret, or self-consciousness. I am grateful for the experience that is to come January 15, 2010.

P E A C E .