12.22

"I can't dishonor my vision or it will begin to dishonor me..." -Lady Gaga

For the longest time I have been debating whether I accept or believe the antics of Lady Gaga as authentic or genuine. Not unlike many others, I was taken aback by her [need] to be overwhelmingly different; loud or excessive. Simply put, I assumed she was a gimmick; seeking attention, success, and fame. But then I decided to examine who she was and read and watched interviews with her. She was [is] completely invested in her career, her craft, and takes it as seriously as she should. Gaga has studied the greats, transcended audiences, and even became a political activist, seeking equality for all. That reason alone deserves praise and unequivocally make her real, [despite her unique attributes] Moreover, I find this quote to be an intriguing truth. I believe, [whole heartedly] that you absolutely must show yourself faithful to the gift [vision] that has been entrusted in you. Failure to do so, results in; failure. Your gift may be removed from you. That being said, disregard the naysayers, conformists, and experienced. Be true to you; against all odds, and in spite of...

12.21

PERiPETiA (n)


   A sudden turn of events or an unexpected reversal [of fortune]; especially in literary works.

but what about real life? This word was first introduced to me as a theatre major, the course was history of theatre and we, the students, were being taught its use. Moreover, dating back to Greek mythology, each depiction of literature was certain to have a few necessary elements; among them, [from what I can remember] a beginning, middle, and end; and, peripetia. Each great work required  reversal of fortune; the bad guy loses everything, [virtue over vice] or all things going well for the protagonist until death strikes, or some sort of accident... [etc.] This component, peripetia, managed to remain relevant and consistent, seen in every book, play, and television show there is today. Not solely because it ensues entertainment, but because it is a humanistic quality and coordinate with the oneness of the human experience. Peripetia is real life, everyday. In fact, it is the way the world works. Daily, we are faced with obstacle, adversity, difficulty, and failure. Its a natural selection, there will always be something; good or bad. What is done with the predicament faced is determined by you, solely. Such is life. [chin up]

12.20

In efforts to become a published writer, I am writing everyday and trying to create opportunities. In doing so, Im trying to get a gig as a guest writer/blogger [whatever] on different mediums and sites.  So... this is what I wrote today...

What I would like to do is work on stories that relate to entertainment; more specifically, I would like to cover the award season. The idea is to focus or highlight the African American nominees, exploring their idiosyncrasies, purpose, and identity as the season progresses and unveils the winners in the categories of best actor/actress, best supporting actor/actress, and perhaps best film, providing that African Americans are nominated in each category. I want to write, in my opinion, their best performances, possibilities, and potential and talent in an industry that still appears to be biased in the opportunities present for people of color. As follows, is a portion of the type of work I would like to publish.

Viola Davis is an exquisite human and I am completely enthralled by her being. Most fascinated by her humility and spirit of excellence. As the award season approaches Mrs. Davis’ name again becomes pertinent, spoken out of the mouths of many audiences; critics and academies alike. This year, for her role in The Help, as Aibeleen. Keeping the controversy behind her, invested in telling the stories of real people, connected with the human experience, Mrs. Davis is nominated for a Golden Globe for Best Actress....

Viola Davis has become regarded as hollywood royalty praised by many, her peers, including he incomparable Meryl Streep. In Entertainment Weekly Meryl Streep had this to say, “Her humanity marches out in front of her; her kindness, her fierceness, her unwillingness to compromise, her stubbornness make me love her too.”

yet, still, as an African American actor, even in 2012 there are inhibitions, felt by even Viola Davis. In an interview with Charlie Rose, she responded, “I never dreamed I wouldn’t have the same opportunities as Meryl Streep... being black and a woman.”

I look forward to sharing the rest of the story with you,

12.19

Sometimes I feel like you could care less about me, my feelings; emotions, wants and needs, and that makes me sad. [it breaks my heart.] I feel like I'm investing all this energy into appeasements. [making you comfortable] but in return, I get not nearly what I sometimes desire most.

BUT,

I love you so much. While I sit here and consider how much you do; done and have, in efforts to ensure I am confident, I know I must be crazy to ever second guess [even for a moment] what we have. I profess I'm a mess. but one thing holds true.

Y...O...U...

12.17

"Never assume that anyone is smarter than you.."

I read this quote in an article and was completely struck by its significance. In any endeavor, there will be an opposing force and those who firmly believe that your goal is unattainable, and for a variety of reason. To think, sometimes the opinions of others can be the determinant factor in what you do... fuck that. [excuse my language] but don't let anyone else's presumed "intelligence," how much they know about a given subject; business, or no matter how great their disdain for you may be, determine your existence. I won't.

In other news; Im convinced, Im a writer. As a result, I told myself that I will write something every day. Im going to put myself on a schedule.

see you soon,